Avoidance can it be a good thing when you have CPTSD?

Its been a wee while since I wrote. Here I am again. What has been happening in the mean while? Apart from trips to vet for Busby’s injection and to do my shopping not much. I washed clothes and rewashed them, finally getting them out and hanging them over my stair rails to dry in the heat from wood fire. Yeah!

I have made plans to visit two friends and did not turn up. I have so far it seems won the battle of the mice yeah.

I have made an appointment with my GP, Yeah; to discuss my medication and an appointment with the psychiatrist I had seen once before. This item creates great anxiety in me. So much so I am fluctuating between cancelling the appointment. As I write I feel my throat tighten and my mouth go dry. I attempt to focus on the benefit if an ADHD medication may actually reconnect my brain somehow.

I have been watching videos in regard to ADHD and found myself watching many of these from here. http://www.youtube.com/channel/UC-nPM1_kSZf91ZGkcgy_95Q

I found myself feeling at home at times in tears as I began to recognise aspects of my own processing and behaviours shared and explained in this channel. After watching and connecting the fear of being diagnosed with ADHD is reduced somewhat. Then I go into what if I am NOT diagnosed with ADHD and I am just lazy and disorganised hopeless and all the words I have heard so often over the course of my life?

So rather than go down the rabbit hole of YouTube and my search engine I decided to get out of the house, yes avoiding the garden, the house and the computer. I loaded up the dogs and we headed off for some lunch.

I had to pick up some chook grains for my hens and roosters (yes roosters oh dear that is also on the I have to deal with soon list), in Huonville.

I decided I would venture to Summer Kitchen in Raneleagh which used to be a small village a little over two KMs from Huonville but now is really a suburb of it.

The photos below see some of my flock saying Where the heck are You going? We are starving!
A house on the way, where the newest owners have had enough obviously of past work on the house they purchased.
Spring is certainly arriving in my beautiful valley. Last photo is of Hawthorne flowering along the road.

Even though we have not had any outbreaks of Covid here in Tasmania for over a year cafes, shops and businesses remain on COVID Responsiblities requiring signing in or using the Covid App, social distancing etc. A beautiful brunch at Summer Kitchen,https://www.facebook.com/Summer-Kitchen-Bakery-389693084374495/ delicious vegetarian wrap (I am not a vegetarian) with wonderful garlic hummus and fresh vegies…large cappuccino sitting in sunshine with my dogs about me. Near-bye were a group of bicyclists (MAMILS Middle aged men in Lycra a few ladies too) enjoying the sunshine too. My dogs were petted and discussion about them. Several proud doggy dads showed me their furbabies photos a gorgeous Samoy, a labrador, a whippet and poodle. The valley is a cyclists delight. My dogs were the only ones present but as we arrived we passed a couple leaving with their owners. I love that my valley has so many dog friendly places to eat.

After leaving Summer Kitchen Raneleagh we headed basically to the hill behind the Raneleagh showground. On the way we passed the Home Hill Winery, https://www.homehillwines.com.au/ . The first photograph below shows the face area of Mount Beauty. A different view than from my home. This mountain range certainly delineates one end of the Huon Valley. So green yet as I drove up the hill the grasses altered and whilst they look dry the ground under my feet and the dogs paws was very wet. We have had so much rain and wind over the last few weeks. (normal for the time of year).

The last photograph above is from the hill looking back down to the valley over Raneleagh.



The following photographs are the drive back down from the hill top to Raneleagh. When I see the rock along the road I am awed at how trees, shrubs and grasses grow, such tall trees. Hobart is the second driest Captial city in Australia. mM beautiful valley is often on water restrictions in summertime.


In the valley timber homes abound. As Tasmania is known for its State Forests and wood was easy to access for many over brick and other materials.

The photographs below see me driving alongside the Huon River towards Judbury another small village well it is really not a village as it has no shops, post office, pub, being only approximately 13kms/8miles to Huonville. Rain falling ahead, the river valley is green and lush. The third photograph is of the Tassal Nursery for their salmon. They hatch the salmon eggs and grow them until they reach smolt (hatchling fish reach the length/weight/size for the smolt can now move from the fresh water into the sea cages/nets. As I drive further we begin to see the homes of Judbury so many new homes being built in the hillside, and along the river flats. Hard to remember that smoke and fires were all around here only Summer 2018 in the hills.

I have enjoyed the journey so far, it seems that the dogs have too. I really enjoy my own time, and doing my own thing generally, so find this such an enjoyable thing.
Thankful for my car, my dogs who make my life and keep me doing things. I am thankful to live in such a beautiful area.
blessings to You. Tazzie

Magnolia Magnoliaceae,

Magnolias symbolized dignity and nobility. In ancient China, magnolias were thought to be the perfect symbols of womanly beauty and gentleness. In the American South, white magnolias are commonly seen in bridal bouquets because the flowers are thought to reflect and emphasize the bride’s purity and nobility (off Wikipedia directly).

Photograph property of Echidna Home.

Fossil records suggest that the genus has existed from the Cretaceous period (145-66 million years ago), making the Magnolia the first flowering plant.
https://arboriculture.wordpress.com/2016/01/06/a-history-of-the-magnolia/

Beetles generally pollinate magnolias in return the magnolia feeds the beetle a beautiful example of symbiosis. (two living organsims providing mutual benefit).
Why do beetles and not bees pollinate them? Bees were not about in the Cretaceous period. They have only been since 130million years ago. So beetles pollinated plants of the Cretaceous period. The structure of the Magnolia flower and the beetles visiting prior to the flower opening means that it has been pollinated for reproduction prior to other insects coming and taking pollen away.

If you are interested in knowing more about pollination of Magnolias this blog is an enjoyable and light read.
http://pollinators.blogspot.com/2011/06/magnolias-and-beetle-pollination.html

That is amazing to me. I look at the photo I took of this stunning flower on this sculptural tree welcoming the coming spring (here in Tasmania) and am floored to have learnt how these trees have been here on Mother Earth sharing their beautiful blooms. That they have such a fascination but seemingly overlooked (at least by me) and unknown importance to our plant world. There are believed to be over 200 flowering species and you can have deciduous or evergreen Magnolias.

The bark of the magnolia trees M. officinalis, has a long history of being used in herbal medicine.

Today components of the bark are being researched for treatment in mental health illnesses depression, anxiety and bipolar. It may be useful for sleep

It might be useful for sleep, stress, soothe and calm. It is used for these purposes in Traditional Chinese, Japanese and Korean medicine.

There has also been research looking at the potential of constituents of the bark in treatment of epilepsy.

I am not endorsing the use of the bark. I am sharing information. Like any medication, from a GP or an alternate therapist/practitioner dosage there may be side effects and or it may interfere with other medications you are taking.

I have often wanted to plant a magnolia yet our springs are usually very rainy and windy here and the blossoms would not last at my place. Instead I admire the uniqueness and splendour of these amazing gifts from Mother Earth. Now shared across many countries. Instead I look at their beauty in gardens that are more protected than mine.

blessings to You, Tazzie

Some of the information shared here is attributed to the following sites and documents.

Magnolia: the Genus of Magnolia. edited by Satyajit D. Sarker, Yuji Maruyama

https://arboriculture.wordpress.com/2016/01/06/a-history-of-the-magnolia/

Biological activity and toxicity of the Chinese herb Magnolia officinalis Rehder & E. Wilson (Houpo) and its constituents

More information https://www.healthline.com/nutrition/magnolia-bark.

ttps://www.newworldencyclopedia.org/entry/Magnolia

Magnolol, a major bioactive constituent of the bark of Magnolia officinalis, exerts antiepileptic effects via the GABA/benzodiazepine receptor complex in mice Mélanie Poivre and Pierre Duez
https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/?term=Duez%20P%5BAuthor%5D&cauthor=true&cauthor_uid=28271656

all photographs are mostly taken by me on my blog. If I have not taken the photo I will always give credit to the photographer. Please do not share any photos off my blog without getting my permission.

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